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Wednesday, May 31, 2017
Reflection
I started writing this particular post 2 months back. Well, it's not long but it serves as a good reminder of the memories as well as the lessons learnt from this. After so long, I guess I finally have the courage to post this and start afresh.
100% is never enough. It's always me trying to make the first move and initiative. Day in and out, your nonchalant attitude and reply makes me wonder if I really suck that badly. The only thing on my mind was always 'how do i make it better?' and 'what did i not do right?' It's so mentally draining.. So much I turned to my books the moment I open my eyes. And going for midnight run after that so that I could fall asleep immediately after tiring myself.
It used to be so good. We clicked instantly and we look forward to each other's text and outing. Going to random places to eat, chill and play. But things change so fast?! Within only 2 months everything just came crumbling down. No effort, nonchalant replies. I have enough of giving. Sometimes it's really tiring to just be the one taking the initiative all the time. Well, although all my friends told me to give it up as it is obviously not working... I still want to believe because you were the one that asked for this r/s first? Its ok. through this, I became stronger. And I still believe. Things happen for a reason and I am sure that better things are waiting for me. Out there. Some where. And I'm sure I will be able to find it. |